Today, I woke up as I would any other ordinary work day; I showered, got dressed and was off to work. Upon my arrival, a sudden rush of depression and an overwhelming feeling of dissatisfaction came over me. I began to think about where I was in my life and career, and how I have not lived up to my own expectations. I pondered and obsessed over how little I have accomplished since my graduation from university in 2008. I was focusing on things I did not have, things I wished I had, and a career I did not want. My pattern of thinking sent me into a spiral of sadness, a feeling I had drifted away from for many months.
My male-instincts to fix the situation soon kicked into gear. I turned to the one person in my life that causes massive chain reactions in my brain and makes bad things melt away like butter in a hot pan; my girlfriend of three glorious years. At lunch, I spoke with her and she made me realize that not everyone is in a place in life where they had imagined or originally dreamt they would be. The conversation caused me re-think my day/week/month and to analyze the aspects of my life that I do have. It opened a door I forgot about; a portal that swung me into a mood of bright optimism. She made me observe details I had been overlooking the past few months and reminded me of the great resources I have. For this I am grateful.
It is convenient and most easy to find certain aspects in life that one does not have to turn against oneself. Negativity never benefits anyone; I find that people who thrive on negativity are only out there to cause harm (Does that really help anyone other than themselves? How selfish). The moment we focus our positive energy to the things that make our lives possible, namely, the people and resources that surround daily life, that we are able to move forward and live to our potentials.
